The Golden Girl

I was a bit tensed in the office today as I couldn't update my attendance due to some technical problems. My colleague hapened to notice me.

"Are tu tension matle yaar. . .  Ja ghar ja, girlfriend ko badhiya call shawl kar. . .  maje kar aaj"

[Hey dude! Don't worry man! Just go home, spend some time with your girlfriend. . . Have fun] XD

"Are kaha yaar apni koi. . . " I replied in a gloomy tone. :-(

[I don't have any]

"Saale is age me agar teri koi girlfriend nahi hai toh matlab tere me hi koi kami hai" X-(

[At this age of yours, if you don't have a girlfriend then there's must be something wrong with you]

"Nahi. . . Aisa nahi hai. . . thi mere life me koi but abhi wo chali gayi! "

[No. . .  Its not like that, I had someone but now she is gone]

"Toh tune use bataya hi nahi hoga"

[You might not have had confessed her]

"Are bataya tha yaar. . .  But kaisa hai na, jisko mai pasand karta , usko mai pasand nahi ata"

[I did tell her . . . But if I like some one, she doesn't feel the same way around]

He gave me a bear hug when I said this. :'(

"Bhai samajh sakta hu mai tera dard!"

[Bro, I can feel the pain] o_O

As I returned to  my room and gave a thought about this little incident some part of my mind said I am not that BAD.. Agreed, I am not one of those studs or players out there but I feel I'm good because there WAS a girl who made me realize that.She is now far far away from me and till date the only girl in my life who EVER confessed that SHE had a crush on me.  

It was 16th April, 2013 I was having dinner, struggling with those concrete like chapatis, when she sent me a text. It started general How are yous and what are you doing etc and then she asked that she wanted to confess a guy about the way she felt for him? I answered her to be direct and after a couple of minutes she sent me a text which read - 

"Rachiiiiiit! Its you! I have a huge crush on you! "

I almost spilled the daal I was trying to swallow. It was totally unexpected, and so sudden that my heart was racing and hands trembling. I ran to the mirror and  checked if it was really me who she had sent a text to. Before I could reply anything numerous other texts followed about how she was nervous, feeling anxious and tensed as well the excitement taking a toll on her mind and so many things. I helped her calm down and said I'm fine with it. She called me immediately and since and then began our days of fun.

Meetings became a regular affair. Before the exams started and after the exams got over. During the holidays we would go to the CCD and keep staring at eachother, steal pecks and naughtily tickle eachother trying not to raise suspicion, go for rides and even dance together and so many more. I sill remember the way she used to flutter her eyes. That would make me just go crazy. And that night of the farewell party - she looked so sexy in that shimmering red saree. I danced with her like no tomorrow, hands in hands and eyes never leaving contact. Woo hoo! :-D

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Engineering was about to end. I just had 2-3 weeks left in Nagpur back then. I believed that if my presence made her feel happy then why shouldn't I spend time with her? So we had been each others clock partners there after.Be it late night flirting or sharing coffee, going for rides, hugging eachother midst a crowded street and even quickly placing pecks whenever we could. Those days were awesome and I still cherish them.

But things started to change when she asked me if I would accept her in future if she happened to get serious about me. That was a difficult, VERY difficult question for me [Even beyond Mathematics] but I didn't want to get her too serious and I said that I wouldn't because I had some other aspirations. Deep down I felt she was too good for me. I made an excuse that I wanted to have someone younger to me. A totally baseless reason compiled by my idiotic mind. She was disheartened but she was brave and mature enough to take it in the right spirit and continue to be with me.

Even after that my over active hypo synthesizing mind started feeling as if I was still giving her false hopes. Thus after leaving Nagpur, I stopped being in touch with her. Later through a series of events I realized I was wrong. I felt very guilty about it and decided to clarify the things with her. I apologized to her and I still do sometimes and all she does is flutter her eyes lovingly saying, 

Rachiiiiiit, I love you! The very next moment I melt down. 

We still meet sometimes, flirt like crazy and keep flying kisses to eachother but when I start sharing my tales or she shares some of her stories we support eachother very well and help come out from the worries. Well, at least she does so. I am not sure about whether I could ever help her actually. Till date I never have had such a wonderful friend like hers and probably will never have. She made me realize that love is not just about having someone as an arm candy but more as someone who could be trusted.

And I do trust her. He he! ;-)

This happened again my room mate is playing - Paani Da Rang - Vicky Donor!

Cheers!